Fatigue

Today Dan took mom for her chemo and radiation.  Mom looked tired.  She hasn't been sleeping and was up last night with the dry heaves.  I think she may be looking forward to the weekend so she can take a breather from all of this.  Dan told me he brought her a plant to help cheer her up.  My heart just melted! Couldn't ask for a better man than the one God gave me.  

Because mom is becoming more nauseous, they gave her more steroids with her chemo.  This is like a catch 22.  It will help with her nausea but keeps her up at night.  If you've ever taken Prednisone, you know what the side effects are like.  It's a strong stimulant and makes you feel like you had 5 pots of coffee.  You get antsy and can't sleep. It's awful.  

Mom still doesn't have an appetite.  This concerns me immensely. Dan tried to talk to her about this and encouraged her to at least try to get down some Ensure.  He even stopped to get her some Gatorade (bless his heart) so that she would have something in her stomach and help give her a little bit of strength.  When I called her later, I also tried to encourage her to eat and asked her if she knew the importance of making sure she eats.  She did but all she wanted to do was go take a nap.  She sounded very lethargic.  And mom never napped before...just goes to show how much this is taking a toll on her already.  I tried to entice her to eat by asking her if she wanted any of her favorite foods, but a no go.

It tears me apart to see mom go through this and especially not eating.  I plan on visiting her tomorrow.  I want to make sure she rests and is eating something.  And she may need some stuff done around the house, I don't think she has the energy to do it herself.

I can't say enough about my employer.  I missed time at work this week for mom's treatment.  To make up some of the time, I planned on working tomorrow. They would not hear of it.  They insisted I spend time with mom and not to worry about my time.  I started to tear up.  Jody (the President), kissed me on the head while her husband actually thanked me for being such a good employee and that I'm a good person and I need to be with my family.  My boss was also involved with this and told me to go spend time with my mom.  I feel so blessed to work there and to know these people as well as my other co-workers who have also been very supportive.  I very much appreciate all of you!

I'm not going to call mom tonight.  I don't want to disturb her.  I will see her tomorrow and hope that she is well enough to go over the application from Social Services so that we can get that taken care of.

Love you mom!  We're all here for you. Don't you worry about nothing but taking care of yourself!